Sometimes Sometimes I wish I was leading a secret double life that even I had no idea about, like a Tyler Durton split personality… But then I realize the silliness of wishing for something that I’d have no idea about… I mean, really, what if I already do…

Sometimes

Sometimes I wish I was leading a secret double life that even I had no idea about, like a Tyler Durton split personality… But then I realize the silliness of wishing for something that I’d have no idea about… I mean, really, what if I already do…

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Temporary I find myself in temporary depression… from time to time… quite often… it’s wiped away by the presence of certain individuals, or a mind numbing movie, or a good lecture… but as soon as I’m done with that moment, I am back in it… sometimes at work I type words into google like Tesla, and end up feeling more depressed after reading, for the fact that the world seems to overlook greatness…  I am depressed with the world, it does not impress me like it used to…  I am depressed with mankind…  My depression is not temporary, it is constant, I only temporarily notice it before I try to distract myself…  I want to grab all of mankind by the shoulders and just shake it awake, screaming, praying that everyone will realize the pointlessness of all of this…  There really is no point to any of it…  Nikola Tesla, Marcus Aurelius, or even Thomas Jefferson for that matter, may have been some of the most brilliant minds, but for what?  To what end was it worth furthering civilization?  For what?  This entire existence is really temporary…  Even if your memory may live on forever, what are we remembering anyone for?  For what could any accomplishment mean given our relative insignificance to the infinity that is our surroundings?  I don’t think I’m depressed because of existence, but rather it’s lack of meaning, and the fact I feel that no one truly questions everything as I do…

Temporary

I find myself in temporary depression… from time to time… quite often… it’s wiped away by the presence of certain individuals, or a mind numbing movie, or a good lecture… but as soon as I’m done with that moment, I am back in it… sometimes at work I type words into google like Tesla, and end up feeling more depressed after reading, for the fact that the world seems to overlook greatness…  I am depressed with the world, it does not impress me like it used to…  I am depressed with mankind…  My depression is not temporary, it is constant, I only temporarily notice it before I try to distract myself…  I want to grab all of mankind by the shoulders and just shake it awake, screaming, praying that everyone will realize the pointlessness of all of this…  There really is no point to any of it…  Nikola Tesla, Marcus Aurelius, or even Thomas Jefferson for that matter, may have been some of the most brilliant minds, but for what?  To what end was it worth furthering civilization?  For what?  This entire existence is really temporary…  Even if your memory may live on forever, what are we remembering anyone for?  For what could any accomplishment mean given our relative insignificance to the infinity that is our surroundings?  I don’t think I’m depressed because of existence, but rather it’s lack of meaning, and the fact I feel that no one truly questions everything as I do…

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Freestyle Went to a crazy party on Saturday… started acapella freestyling with a few guys, turned into a battle between me and another surrounded by a crowd, then surrounded by the whole party… Destroyed him… Set my name down as a great freestyler… Had the entire crowd howling and applauding… felt amazing… felt like a home I’ve never had but only dreamt of… now I feel homesick… It wasn’t about the recognition, it wasn’t about the fame, it wasn’t about my friends or any woman… It was about proving something… it was about educating the rest of the world, showing them what is possible… It was about race, not his or mine, but the human kind… It was about revision of the mind’s eye… they will not look at me the same, therefore they will begin to see others in the same light… anything is possible for anyone provided that they are willing see past predefined restrictions and nurture their will to proceed… practice with the ambition to be the best because nothing is ever earned without toil, perform with the humility as if the rewards of your honed in skills were actually gifted as talents…

Freestyle

Went to a crazy party on Saturday… started acapella freestyling with a few guys, turned into a battle between me and another surrounded by a crowd, then surrounded by the whole party… Destroyed him… Set my name down as a great freestyler… Had the entire crowd howling and applauding… felt amazing… felt like a home I’ve never had but only dreamt of… now I feel homesick… It wasn’t about the recognition, it wasn’t about the fame, it wasn’t about my friends or any woman… It was about proving something… it was about educating the rest of the world, showing them what is possible… It was about race, not his or mine, but the human kind… It was about revision of the mind’s eye… they will not look at me the same, therefore they will begin to see others in the same light… anything is possible for anyone provided that they are willing see past predefined restrictions and nurture their will to proceed… practice with the ambition to be the best because nothing is ever earned without toil, perform with the humility as if the rewards of your honed in skills were actually gifted as talents…

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I am absolutely loving the fact that the lights in my house dim with each bout of thunder…
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“Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know.”
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I am leaving for New York today… I haven’t seen the city yet, but something tells me that I’m going to love it… The grass is always greener on the other side they say… I’ve grown up surrounded by grass and dirt, I want to see a man made environment where they don’t lie… Here we shape the landscape and call it natural, there they cover the ground in metal, concrete, and asphalt, no cookie cutter bullshit… I don’t know if I’m as prepared for NMUN as I’d like to be, but I can assure you I will try my hardest… but most importantly, I will enjoy myself, I will live in the moment… Part of me hopes that they don’t have enough room on the plane ride back for me, “no it’s ok guys, you go ahead, I’ll stay here…” There is only 2 people that I would miss and would miss me too… I feel like this is the last moment of my youth, like after this I need to grow up…
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FIGHTING I am always fighting for what I believe in… always… the hill never levels out, it just gets steeper… It doesn’t get easier, I just get stronger… I just carry on until my knees give out, and I get up again… or I crawl… Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night Stephen, Rage Rage Against The Dying Of The Light, Rage against the system, rage against the standard, rage against injustice, rage against those that put you down, rage through the trenches, rage through the night, the world is too still, never stop, fight death till your dying day… I am going to live forever or die trying…

FIGHTING

I am always fighting for what I believe in… always… the hill never levels out, it just gets steeper… It doesn’t get easier, I just get stronger… I just carry on until my knees give out, and I get up again… or I crawl…

Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night Stephen, Rage Rage Against The Dying Of The Light, Rage against the system, rage against the standard, rage against injustice, rage against those that put you down, rage through the trenches, rage through the night, the world is too still, never stop, fight death till your dying day… I am going to live forever or die trying…

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This is why I’m glad I’m a Libertarian… Sam Koontz ‎11 REASONS TO VOTE DEMOCRAT When your family or friends cannot explain why they voted Democrat, give them this list. Then they can then pick a reason from this “TOP 11”.. 1. I voted Democrat because I believe oil companies’ profits of 4% on a gallon of gas are obscene, but the government taxing the same gallon of gas at 15% isn’t. 2. I voted Democrat because I believe the government will do a better job of spending the money I earn than I would. 3. I voted Democrat because Freedom of Speech is fine as long as nobody is offended by it. 4. I voted Democrat because I’m way too irresponsible to own a gun, and I know that my local police are all I need to protect me from murderers and thieves. 5. I voted Democrat because I believe that people who can’t tell us if it will rain on Friday can tell us that the polar ice caps will melt away in ten years if I don’t start driving a Prius. 6. I voted Democrat because I’m not concerned about millions of babies being aborted so long as we keep all death row inmates alive. 7. I voted Democrat because I think illegal aliens have a right to free health care, education, and Social Security benefits, and we should take away the social security from those who paid into it. 8. I voted Democrat because I believe that business should not be allowed to make profits for themselves. They need to break even and give the rest away to the government for redistribution as the Democrats see fit. (Think like Obama, Socialism) 9. I voted Democrat because I believe liberal judges need to rewrite the Constitution every few days to suit some fringe kooks who would never get their agendas past the voters. 10.. I voted Democrat because I think that it’s better to pay billions to people who hate us for their oil, but not drill our own because it might upset some endangered beetle, gopher or fish. 11. I voted Democrat because while we live in the greatest, most wonderful country in the world, I was promised “HOPE AND CHANGE”. Like ·  · 54 minutes ago ·  2 people like this. Sam Koontz This is just too funny not to post… sorry it is soooo not PC. 53 minutes ago · Like ·  1 Sam Koontz I obviously have never voted democrat. 52 minutes ago · Like ·  2 Steve-oh RonPaul Khatib ‎11 REASONS TO VOTE REPUBLICAN -by Stephen El-Khatib  1. because I believe going to war over oil is necessary, and investing that same amount of money on alternative fuel sources is for tree huggers… 2. because I believe corporations do a better job of running government then people… 3. because I believe there isn’t such thing as freedom of speech, or for that matter privacy according to the patriot act… 4. because I believe that guns are acceptable even though lethal, but Medical Marijuana isn’t acceptable even though non-lethal… 5. because I believe people who don’t believe in the Geneva conventions, NATO, or Palestine, should predict whether or not Iran will attack with nuclear weapons… 6. Because I believe separation of church and state is something our forefathers joked about, making America the largest prison state is healthy, and I ignore the fact that in countries where abortion is illegal the same amount of babies are aborted but the rate of death in women is higher… 7. Because I believe that complaining about illegal immigration will fix the problem, but would rather put our troops on other countries borders than our own… 8. Because I believe that corporations should mandate our laws and interests abroad on their own, but are not allowed to fall on their own, no it is the tax payer whom stores his money in banks and invests in corporate merchandise to also pay them with his taxes… 9. Because I believe Conservative politicians need not even worry about the constitution or what it says, we need not properly declare wars, or respect freedom of speech or the privacy of one’s home… 10. Because I don’t actually realize the cost of drilling off of our own shores and the fact that drilling through miles of rock will not actually be as cheap as buying it from third parties willing to sell it dirt cheap comparatively to the price of life which is paid for anyone who does not let us use their resources… 11. Because I actually believe this is the greatest country in the world, I mean after all, God said so in the Bible, and anyone who doesn’t subscribe to our belief or those bible loving guys at AIPAC, should be lied about by way of propaganda and put to death… 3 minutes ago · Like Sam Koontz So many of your examples are completely inaccurate! a few seconds ago · Like

This is why I’m glad I’m a Libertarian…

Sam Koontz
‎11 REASONS TO VOTE DEMOCRAT
When your family or friends cannot explain why they voted Democrat, give them this list. Then they can then pick a reason from this “TOP 11”..

1. I voted Democrat because I believe oil companies’ profits of 4% on a gallon of gas are obscene, but the government taxing the same gallon of gas at 15% isn’t.

2. I voted Democrat because I believe the government will do a better job of spending the money I earn than I would.

3. I voted Democrat because Freedom of Speech is fine as long as nobody is offended by it.

4. I voted Democrat because I’m way too irresponsible to own a gun, and I know that my local police are all I need to protect me from murderers and thieves.

5. I voted Democrat because I believe that people who can’t tell us if it will rain on Friday can tell us that the polar ice caps will melt away in ten years if I don’t start driving a Prius.

6. I voted Democrat because I’m not concerned about millions of babies being aborted so long as we keep all death row inmates alive.

7. I voted Democrat because I think illegal aliens have a right to free health care, education, and Social Security benefits, and we should take away the social security from those who paid into it.

8. I voted Democrat because I believe that business should not be allowed to make profits for themselves. They need to break even and give the rest away to the government for redistribution as the Democrats see fit. (Think like Obama, Socialism)

9. I voted Democrat because I believe liberal judges need to rewrite the Constitution every few days to suit some fringe kooks who would never get their agendas past the voters.

10.. I voted Democrat because I think that it’s better to pay billions to people who hate us for their oil, but not drill our own because it might upset some endangered beetle, gopher or fish.

11. I voted Democrat because while we live in the greatest, most wonderful country in the world, I was promised “HOPE AND CHANGE”.
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    • Sam Koontz This is just too funny not to post… sorry it is soooo not PC.
      53 minutes ago · Like ·  1
    • Sam Koontz I obviously have never voted democrat.
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    • Steve-oh RonPaul Khatib ‎11 REASONS TO VOTE REPUBLICAN -by Stephen El-Khatib 
      1. because I believe going to war over oil is necessary, and investing that same amount of money on alternative fuel sources is for tree huggers…
      2. because I believe corporations do a better job of running government then people…
      3. because I believe there isn’t such thing as freedom of speech, or for that matter privacy according to the patriot act…
      4. because I believe that guns are acceptable even though lethal, but Medical Marijuana isn’t acceptable even though non-lethal…
      5. because I believe people who don’t believe in the Geneva conventions, NATO, or Palestine, should predict whether or not Iran will attack with nuclear weapons…
      6. Because I believe separation of church and state is something our forefathers joked about, making America the largest prison state is healthy, and I ignore the fact that in countries where abortion is illegal the same amount of babies are aborted but the rate of death in women is higher…
      7. Because I believe that complaining about illegal immigration will fix the problem, but would rather put our troops on other countries borders than our own…
      8. Because I believe that corporations should mandate our laws and interests abroad on their own, but are not allowed to fall on their own, no it is the tax payer whom stores his money in banks and invests in corporate merchandise to also pay them with his taxes…
      9. Because I believe Conservative politicians need not even worry about the constitution or what it says, we need not properly declare wars, or respect freedom of speech or the privacy of one’s home…
      10. Because I don’t actually realize the cost of drilling off of our own shores and the fact that drilling through miles of rock will not actually be as cheap as buying it from third parties willing to sell it dirt cheap comparatively to the price of life which is paid for anyone who does not let us use their resources…
      11. Because I actually believe this is the greatest country in the world, I mean after all, God said so in the Bible, and anyone who doesn’t subscribe to our belief or those bible loving guys at AIPAC, should be lied about by way of propaganda and put to death…
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    • Sam Koontz So many of your examples are completely inaccurate!
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Keeping it classy… added more music to my page… not sure if I want to change the theme…
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“Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones.”
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watching reflections fade…missing things I’ve never had…unimpressed with impressions…
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So tired of separation…
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